flynn syndrome

i just re-read all the comments my ex-officemates wrote here... and now im really into tears. never did i cry this hard before. i miss my team, my friends and my boss/es. many said i made them laugh or happy but they just didnt know that they were really were the ones who made me love life inspite everything that has happened to me. i may be quite sometimes or stubborn always but god knows i love everyone of you.
im jobless and my heart is still robbed by that single person who i thought would powder my back when im in sweat, buy me pretzels and help me cut out the puzzles on its back package, wake me up with kisses and bring me toys as pasalubong. these things may also be the reason why im crying now. too hard that my eyes are hurting so much. when will i ever be happy? i hate opening this journal i have but i've got nowhere to go. somebody told me that writing helps but as for now its not working on me. help me dear lord. i miss them, i miss choochoo and i miss being happy. i wish i could write more but my hands just cant type anymore. wherever i maybe, i will never forget each one of you, especially you who taught me how to say i love you back when somebody says i love you.

Posted by angel by day.... at 07:25 6 comments  

Labels: choochoo, friends, pain, teardrops

To the people that ive learned to love in my 9 months stay here, this goes for you all....

You will always be in my heart.

Thank you

Jhellai
John
Anthony
Cathy
Raffy
Kat
Ching
Ferdie
Mykiss
Bai (Edgar)
Jun
Ate July
Jashel
MayMay
David
Chen
Miss Lia

And to the others who ive became friends with... Sorry i failed you guys. Buhbye! :)


Cai
ps Love you're work if you dont want to end up like me.
pps Thank you for everything Miss Lia and Mr. John.

same

Posted by angel by day.... at 23:12 16 comments  

Choo choo called about 12:00 noon today from Davao asking me what i want as pasalubong. I got excited i didnt know what to answer. I already got a list written inside my head because I know there would be such call.
I said i want lots and lots of jumpoods ( my baby term for junkfoods).

Well anyway, here's an 'excerpt' on our conversation:

Choo Choo: muoli nako. unsa imo ipadala?
Me: jumpoods na daghan
Choo Choo: ha? mao ra na?
Me: Why?
Choo Choo: sure ka? lain na lang beh. mapalit ra mana nato anytime oi.
Me: ikaw bahala oi.
Choo Choo: nge! pagtarong bah
Me: uhmm.. maghuna huna sa ko.. (seconds after) boxers na lang
kay sumo na kau ako boxers.
Choo Choo: ah ok. cge unsa na style?
Me: basta, kanang ganahan ko.
Choo Choo: nge! unsa man lugar imong ganahan? ambot nimo oi.
Me: Hmp ka! bye...

toot... toot.. toot... toot... toot...

Well Choo Choo, this is what i want.








I like this because ive always liked a heavenly blue one.










But I like this more... so butterflyly. plus the color is so sweet.













This i love the most! Super sexy with slits. Butterflied gihapon.












Pwede pod kani tanan! para walay away mahitabo. hehehe.

Posted by angel by day.... at 23:35 2 comments  

Labels: boxers, butterflies, choo choo, hmp ka, pasalubong

some people are just born cowards. why not face me? after you made your own problems and get caught, why blame it to someone else? if you want you may face me. just stop acting like a gay. after all everybody knows what your reputation is. luma na na imo style. sounding as if battered just to win every newbies' heart. and if you're a real guy, go get yourself an undistorted girl. mao mga girls na naay problema ang unayon nimo para sayon ra nimo makuha noh?
i pity those who cried because of you, you who can't even afford a decent meal and yet trying very hard to look pitiful so the problematic girls may learn to like you. this is for you coward,,, BOOOO!!!

Posted by angel by day.... at 02:05 4 comments  

Labels: coward, gay, infidelity, poor loser

should i have posted this long time ago i could have been healed by now. im just not good at words, im not even good at expressing at all.
pain. when will i not experience pain anymore. my heart's tired, so tired im not letting any sweet efforts the person is doing or planning to do. it will just cause me more sufferings.
im happy during daytimes. i see my officemates, my friends and new faces. im happy doing my work catching my quota even if ive been trying to hit it for the past 8 months now. im happy making jokes and kidding around with my seat mates that they never believe i ever get sad.
but when i go home, in that four corners we shared to sleep every night, i cry silently. the person would just lie facing away from me. as if nothing's wrong. as if we still have a healthy relationship. i start to break the silence by hugging the person tight and whisper those three cute words i thought i will never get tired of telling. the person will just lazily answered back without doing any attempts to at least face me. i tell how much i want to be hugged back and how much i miss the days and nights when we never get tired after each long day of work that we still have time to cuddle and play around. but the person just sleeps. i cant even finished this whole thing up since i cant and wont mention the name. i hate love. god knows how i hate love now. if loving just makes me this sad, i wish i never have loved at all. i dont care anymore. i just want to continue life erasing every memory i have with the person. and i wish i know how.

Posted by angel by day.... at 02:54 4 comments  

Labels: choo choo, letting go, pain, sad, sufferings

The new car looks more expressive, with new front and rear bumpers. Its rear lights are innovated to enhance the features of the car, making it unmistakable even at night. The area behind the air intake on the right side is practically closed while the left side features a vast aperture for cooling the oil radiator.
Its extraordinary engine power can produce a 640 horsepower at 8000 rpm and 487 lbs-ft at 6000 rpm. With an 8500-rpm redline, this 12-cylinder power automobile can boost from zero to 60 mph in 3.3 seconds and accelerate up to a top speed of 210 mph (0.4 seconds faster than the 2006 Murciélago model).
This new Murcielago LP640 brings out a customized sixratio gearbox plus a tougher rear differential and new axle shafts.
Majority of the bodywork doors is made of carbon fiber, except steel scissor doors. It still offers the optional ceramic carbon brake system just like the old model. This system also has 4-channel ABS (anti-blocking system) with TCS and DRP (traction control and electronic brake control respectively).
The seats in the cockpit are more spacious and equipped with redesigned head restraints, upholstered door panels and leather seats, thus, making the driver more comfortable.
Another thing about this car is that it has this new instrument panel with new graphic designs and lights, which is bordered by a Kenwood car radio with a 6.5” widescreen monitor as well as MP3, WMA and DVD player. The instrument panel can also be added with an optional navigation system. Listen with your favorite music while speeding.
Its estimated price is $300,000 with fuel capacity of 26.4 Gallons. As to performance, jot this things out: 0-60 mph: 3.3 seconds, Top speed: 210 mph.
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Posted by angel by day.... at 19:13 2 comments  

Labels: Kenwood car radio, Lamborghini Murciélago LP640, steel scissor doors

One cool FYI:

The f430 will appear in the film Miami vice, driven by Detective Sonny Crockett, played by Colin Farrell. This movie will be released on July 28. So better watch out for it!

Here are the car’s specifications:

General Info

Price: $199,000 – 210,000
Curb Weight: 3,351 lbs
Height: 48.6 in
Length: 177.6 in
Drivetrain Layout: Rear Wheel Drive

Posted by angel by day.... at 17:56 0 comments  

Labels: Colin Farrell, exotic car, Ferrari F430 Spider